Destiny awaits.

a quarter plus 1.

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 17:31:04 GMT

I turned 26 a little over an hour ago.:)

This afternoon, my Mom texted me:

Mama: WAT TYM KA UWI SURPRISE!
Dada: (Bewildered) Anong surprise?
Mama: Di na surprise kung sinabi ko sayo.
Dada: (Onga naman.) Pera ba yan? Hehe.
Mama: Hindi. Favorite mo.
Dada: Manok ba yan?
Mama: Hindi.
Dada: Sushi. :)
Mama: Hindi. Ano ba ubos na load ko.
Mama: Ok. Before dinner po ako uuwi bukas.
Mama: Ok.

Ano kaya ang surprise ng Mama ko? :)

usapang gulay.

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 14:00:07 GMT

Last night, I received rather interesting text message from my sister.

Ritz: Q: Ang mushrooms ba gulay? O rootcrop?
Dada: Fungi.
Ritz: So hindi sila gulay?
Dada: Strictly speaking, hindi sila halaman.
Ritz: Ah ok. Nagorder kasi ako ng beef with broccoli. May mushrooms. Naisip ko lang bigla kung gulay sila.
Dada: Ah ok.

Natawa ako dun.:p

(pa)victim.

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 16:20:50 GMT

Somebody stole my phone and my wallet earlier today at UERM's Out-Patient Clinic. Yup, while I was busy interviewing patients, some criminal disguised as some patient's companion cleverly took my ever-reliable Motorola c651 and the wallet Ba gave me last Christmas, which had Php. 100++ inside, from the pocket of my blazer, which was conveniently placed on a chair, while inside the Consultation Room with the Resident on Duty present. I had to call Globe to have my sim blocked, plus, I have to spend a few hundreds to get a replacement.

Jeezas. I've lost 3 phones already, and 2 of those 3 phones were stolen. Parang ang malas ko yata a.

Anyways, a few hours later, I was at the ICU with Meinard.

Dada: Ma, hindi ka ba naawa sa akin?
Meinard: Hindi.
Dada: Nakakaawa naman yung nangyari sa akin, diba?
Meinard: E, nakangiti ka pa rin dyan e. Ako nga, lumang t-shirt lang ang nawala, lungkot na lungkot na. Ikaw pa kaya, e cellphone at wallet ang nakuha sa'yo.
Dada: E pag nawawalan kasi ako ng gamit, iniisip ko na tulong ko na yun sa kanila.
Meinard: E hindi dapat ganun mag-isip..
Dada: Pero, diba kawawa naman ako? *Shows the kawawa look.*
Meinard: *Smiles.*

In the end, he lent me transpo money so I can go home.:p

happy day.

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 19:10:08 GMT

[mood| giggly]

Two things that made yesterday a happy day.

One, I got myself a dress to wear for graduation.

My Mom and I went shopping for a graduation dress. I already tried on two dresses from a previous trip to MegaMall, so the task at hand was just to let my mom decide which dress to buy. After all, she was the one with the cash. I ended up buying a satin, empire-cut, spaghetti-strapped, knee-length dress, with a balloon skirt, in deep purple.:)

Then, we went to Greenhills, so Mama can shop for something to wear for my graduation. After going through all the stalls in the tiangge and a hearty snack at Brother's Burger, she ended up buying a pair of beige drawstring pants, which she tried on twice, to match the white polo my aunt gave her.

And two, (Ju)Menchi came home from Pangasinan today.

After another 4 days of not seeing the most-adorable-non-fourteen-year-old-boytoy, he went to the house to have dinner with me and my folks. Then, we went out to get dessert and coffee.

But then, we had to cut our evening short because he still had to get some sleep. He will be picking up his aunt from the airport, at around 4 this morning, and off he goes, back home(once again), to the Land of the Milkfish. In the meantime, I have 3 whole days to spend on errands, a visit to the dentist, etcetera, etcetera.

Toodles.

nostalgia.

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 15:02:42 GMT

[mood| melancholy]

In about a week's time, I, along with around 160 classmates will graduate from medical school. A new batch of doctors for the country. I just hope we do give our parent's money's worth and practice our chosen profession. :)

Time does fly, really fast.

countdown.

Wed, 28 Feb 2007 18:38:42 GMT

[mood| excited]

~~31 days~~ ONE DAY to go!!!!!!!!. Yey.:)

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 07:42:41 GMT

[mood| jubilant]

Happy Christmas, everyone. :)

first fight.

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 13:26:38 GMT

The supposed honeymoon stage was abruptly put to a halt. Yup, we had our first fight yesterday.

Not going into much of the detail, we ended up spending the whole of yesterday just passing by each other in the wards, with him throwing me kawawa looks, and matching puppy dog eyes, aimed to move me to show some sign that things are ok between us.

Uh, well. That actually worked for him.

I hate being this cheesy. :p

ritual.

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 15:52:58 GMT

[mood| loved]
[music| Mr. Jones - Counting Crows]

ritalula told me that I should change my Friendster status.

So there. 'Changed it. Whew.

hush.

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 17:09:56 GMT

[mood| giddy]

Musta review?

Hindi pa nagstart. Quality time with my folks e.

Buti ka pa. Tinulugan ko parents ko kagabi e.

Niloloko nga nila ako e. Blooming daw ako ngayon. Tinatanong kung may boyfriend na ako. Ang sabi ko wala naman.:p

Tell them somebody loves you kaya ka blooming.

Putek. Ang keso.

blah. blah.

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 17:42:13 GMT

[mood| awake]

Downloading via dial-up, especially when you're so used to a cable connection can be so frustrating. Anyways, random babbling before I go to bed.

On stuffed animals. One patient at the Pedia Out-Patient Clinic was crying her lungs out after a few minutes of nebulization, i.e. inhlation therapy for people who have difficulty breathing. She calmed down after a few seconds of playing with the stuffed dog tied around my stethoscope. So, future pediatricians, even if putting toys around your necks is pretty annoying, the little ones adore them so much, they stop crying.

On Jollibee. I told my partner today that I can live on Jolly Hotdog and Chicken Joy. True. I can eat those for days. But of course, Mama's home-cooked meals are still at the top of my list.

On finding "The One". I found the bet card Larah and I bought back in first or second year college. I texted Lar and told her that I finally found it, after years of hiding under all the junk I keep. She thought that I found somebody to give the card to (she gave hers to Popper back in college). Mwehehehe.

~

quickie.

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 12:59:32 GMT

[mood| excited]

Hello LJ World. I'm back.:)

wireless.

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 11:43:18 GMT

Between free internet and an airconditioned office to sleep in, I think I am beginning to like my rotation in Psych.

The past few weeks have been pretty laid back. Considering the time I have in my hands, I think I'll be able to finish reading Kaplan by the time I move to Neuro. But knowing this lazy chick, I'll probably be slacking around until the final week, until I get enough sense in me to study.

Anyways, I am just thankful to Kuya Jess for this brief, yet much needed quiet time.

woven and spun.

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 16:09:04 GMT

[mood| loved]

My Lolo Giov and I have this new favorite song. :)

I Am
Nichole Nordeman

Pencil marks on a wall
I wasn't always this tall,
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed,
You watched my team win,
You watched my team lose,
You watched when my bicycle went down again,

And when I was weak unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Elbow healer, Superhero,
come if You can,” and You said “I am”

Only 16, life is so mean, what kind of curfew is at ten PM
You saw my mistakes, You watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I’d never love again

When I was weak, unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Heart-ache Healer, Secret-keeper,
be my Best Friend” and You said “I am”

You saw me wear white, by pale candlelight,
I said forever to what lies ahead
two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
too much it might seem when it’s two AM

When I am weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name.
“Oh Shepherd, Savior, Pasture-maker,
hold on to my hand,” and You say “I am.”

The winds of change,
And circumstance blow in and all around
us so we find a foothold that’s familiar,
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer
Life had begun, I was woven and spun,
You let the angels dance around the throne, who can say when,
But they’ll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home

I will be weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name
“Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer,
Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer,
Lord and King, Beginning and
the End, I am, yes, I am.”

still alive.

Tue, 30 May 2006 11:43:06 GMT

[mood| relieved]

One duty day to go, and off I go to my next rotation. Goodbye OB-Gyn. Hello Psychiatry. :)

boo.

Sat, 20 May 2006 12:14:06 GMT

[mood| indescribable]

I was supposed to be delighted to see you. In fact, there are a lot of things I've been meaning to share with you. Its been so long since we had one of those nice, long conversations. Today was supposed to be one of those 'Happy Days'. But it wasn't.

No, it wasn't. Shame on me..

Instead, I felt that dark cloud hovering over my head. I had that familiar heavy feeling in my chest. I felt like crying, but the tears never came. And as always, the whole length of me felt hardly an inch tall. I was invisible.

don't you dare strike twice.

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 15:09:05 GMT

[mood| worried]

Never for a friend.

Especially one who's into another friend.

No, not ever. I should've learned from the past.

Not again.

Until now.

the game.

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 22:32:09 GMT

[mood| sore]

A week into internship, and I'm feeling exactly what every JI before me felt during their first week. Tired. Edematous. Sore all over.

And yet, everything else excites me. Now, more than ever, all the things I've read, and still have to read, comes to life, in every patient I encounter.

So bring it on. I may not be prepared for it, but I think I can handle a challenge. And like what Meredith said on her first day as an intern in Seattle Grace, "I love the game."

happy(?) april fools'.

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 16:40:40 GMT

[mood| anxious]

It turns out that I will be rotating in the OB Department of East Avenue Medical Center for two weeks. Since the hospitals (the other one being Quirino Memorial Medical Center in Katipunan Avenue Extension) where the outside rotations are held are closer in proximity to my house than UE, I get stay at home for the time being, and enjoy all the pampering I can get. Yey!

On the downside, I left my room mate, sweetnesspie all alone in our deserted dorm room. And I don't get to see my other groupmates, i.e. the rest of 4B, for one month. Ho-hum.

I do hope no one plays a practical joke on me today..:p

fool for you.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 17:32:19 GMT

[mood| determined]
[music| She Bop - Cyndi Lauper]

This will probably be my last entry before Saturday. I will be sleeping at the dorm tomorrow night. No Net access yet, which means no updating until I come home to Katips, and there's no telling when that will be.

As the 1st of April draws near, I am comforted by the fact that all the things I will be experiencing within the next year, will help me become a good doctor, and hopefully a better person. I will just have to work hard, and do my best in what I am tasked to do. Everything else is up to Him. I think I'll be that 'fool' and jump into the Great Unknown, believing in myself and in the things I know I am capable of doing, and having faith in The Maker. Carpe diem. Seize the day. Ayon nga kay Sir Pagsi, "Lundagin mo, baby." I can never go back to this point in my life, so why not make the most out of it, right?:)

Live in the now, and make everything count. There's no other alternative.

sorta believing.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 17:18:03 GMT

[mood| pensive]
[music| At The Beginning - Donna Lewis and Richard Marx]

It may feel like your good intentions can make everything right in your partnerships. No matter what tensions have built up in your relationships over the past several weeks, now is the time to seek resolution. Even if you are having serious conflicts between your own feelings and someone close to you, the key is realizing that you don't need to fix everything. What's critical today is just being aware of the differences.

Listening to the stars again tonight, I put this inner battle to rest, for the time being. And let him be.

psychic.

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 16:54:37 GMT

[mood| anxious]

You can feel the instability around you, yet if you make time for quiet meditation, you should be able to find an inner ground that holds you in place. Creating your own safe haven is important, even if it's only within your imagination. You'll need your energy in the days ahead to react positively to dynamic changes in your environment.

How fitting.:)

the divine diva.

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 17:34:14 GMT

[mood| tired but very much awake]
[music| Paper Boats - Nada Surf]

I never knew sitting down all day long could be so tiring. We had the first of our four-day orientation earlier today. It was mostly a "Welcome" from the Medical Center. Several officials of the hospital came by the College Auditorium to greet us for reaching this far in our medical studies. And of course, they reminded us of the things expected of us, now that we have reached this level. Basically, they scared us, and at the same time, reassured us that this year will definitely be one hell of a learning experience.

The highlight of my day was listening to one of my idols, Dr. Divinagracia, give a short talk. He told us that he highly encouraged the other senior consultants to spend some of their time to personally teach the interns, Seniors and Juniors alike, calling the project The Interns' Hour or something. As an example to the lot, he would spend two hours each week with the rotating group in the Medicine Ward, and teach them anything they would want to know about Cardiology. I was there on my seat, and I thought, Wow. Learning from Divine Grace himself.

When I was in second year, I had the opportunity of learning the basics of Physical Examination from Dr. Divine. He made us read our textbook from cover to cover, after which he tested us by giving us a practical examination. We also had one meeting where we spent 2 hours listening and identifying the different heart sounds and murmurs. Toxic, yes. But we did learn a lot. Contrary to what was originally planned, his talk today made me consider taking my Senior Internship in UE. Hoot.

*****

I think Kuya Jess is playing a little joke on me. :p

identified flying objects.

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 16:35:46 GMT

[mood| hopeful]

Flipis (short for flying ipis) freak me out.

After much thought, I've decided to just let things be. This thing has exhausted me, for the nth time, and I sound much like a broken record already, with all those resolutions. Its time to accept the reality of the situation, and let it run its course. In time, I will have my answers. So there. Tiwala lang.

Orientation starts in a few hours. The long wait, and my 'summer vacation' is over.

Hmm. San ba nanggagaling ang mga flipis na ito? Bakit parang ang dami nila?

safeguard.

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 12:55:12 GMT

[mood| melancholy]

Nalulungkot ako.

Bakit?

Di ko alam.

Ows? Talaga?

Di ko nga alam. Basta.

Ang sabihin mo, hindi mo maamin.